Pondering and Wondering

I feel like this picture! Pondering and wondering! Where am I! Looking at a distance of things yet untold of plans not yet fulfilled. Feeling at times as a failure yet old triumphs keep me from fading away. I am still here surrounded by Love; by family; by friends who test and try us at times. Yet I am a woman who some where in her depths needs the loving arms of her father to hold her and tell her that this is all part of His ultimate plan.
At times when he paints his visions in front of me, I can literally see the paintbrush moving and action taking place and sometimes when I see the outcome to come I want to jump in to the picture and skip everything and get ahead of my self. Yet, His loving arms hold me back and place me in front of the vision and begins to utter words that make me realize I must take one step at a time.